
She said that it helped her believe in a future filled with promise, a future that would be the opposite of our reality, that there would be a time when desperation and despair had been obliterated and harmony was bound to encapsulate us all. She said that she had seen tall buildings - just like those depicted on the mural pieces she was so fond of collecting - and us, smiling.
It was small, this future, small enough to fit in my palm, but it was heavy and carried a weight to it that felt almost like how I imagined truth must feel, if you were ever enclined to carry it. It was a perfect sphere of silver, and it held promises of harmony within it. She said.
I looked at it and I saw those buildings burning; I saw us fleeing from yet another broken dream, and how it would leave us disillusioned and empty. There would be neither desperation nor despair, but harmony would come in the obliteration of hope, where we would feel nothing anymore because the processing of emotion had become too unbearable.
I told her none of this when she offered me her one possession, reaching it out to me with a hand stained with the blood of battle. She looked too encouraging, as though she relied too much on it to salvage what little was left of our brethren, for me to shatter the peace of her last few moments. Her breath was failing her.
I didn't cry.
Now, I carry our future like a burden near my heart, in the breast pocket of my shirt, as we walk through the djungles that have grown over the abandoned homes of what was once thriving communities. And the bodies of the dead hide beneath the vines, beneath the roots and thickets. I try not to trample them, but sometimes... Sometimes I wonder if, perhaps, they're everywhere, impossible to avoid.
There are five in our group left. Danya and Lethaniel were taken by the darkness fifty days ago. Margo, Gennie and Brohan died fighting the Impostors. We who are still standing will head for those tall buildings; that seems to have been our goal from the moment we formed a circle for the first time. Even if we didn't know it then. And when we reach them I will see whose predictions were correct, but I know that whether we dance for joy or slip into lethargy matters little at this point - what we all wish for is rest, and that we shall have, either way.
Our future seems happy to greet us: everyday the sphere glows brighter.
Not much further now.